This is the story of a boy
Who Was Homeless
And Fully Grown Up, too
You See GRownups need Homes, too
He needed to be adopted
he was an orphan
his mother had recently died of cancer
whom he loved so dearly
and missed so much, that
twas a wonder he survived her death himself.
He was homeless
and it didn't bother him, to be homeless
it was just on those cold nights
he had gone to college for a four year
paramedic degree but been
unable to graduate, and therefore
could find no work, no job.
in fact when i met him he was living at
a paramedic rescue station for ambulances
he had been living there for about a year
by the time i met him
he slept on a couch
it didn't have a bed, it was just a couch
and he watched tvday after day went by
the paramedic station wouldn't give him a job but
they let him stay there as a home and he slep
on a sofa he bathed there and dressed there
when i met him
he was the most beautiful boy
that i had ever met in my life.
He took me to his paramedic station
and the first thing he said was, "You've Got
To Meet
My Dad!" and he took me to a photograph
on an empty refirerator
a page size, very old photograph
of his father before he had died
his father had died when he was three
years old, hit by a drunk driver.
I said, "So your father's not alive now?"
"No,he died when i was a baby.I'm an Orhpan,"
he explained.  Then he asked me
where would i like to go to eat
and he said "Oh!  Oh! I Know the perfect
place!  It's a mexican buffet in downtown
ill take you there and we can eat!
So we went in his car.  I ordered a vegetable
quesadilla, and it the best one i ever had, because
i was in love.  We sat side by side in this
enormous booth against a window and i, i think
i held his hand
for the first time.  (i have to stop here because
I'm starting to cry...)

My Most-Beloved Husband---Was He
Born In A Time Of Peace, Or In A Time
Of War?  I Need To Know Somehow.
I Think We Are The Children Of Our Sun
The Sun Is The Center Of All Life
It is almost all the matter in the solar system
Earth orbits it and it warms the earth
with it starlight, for the Sun is a Star
In a Sea of Stars, But Our Sun is God
Or it Was Created By One God
One God To Rule Them, One God
To Bind Them----One God, One Sun
Earth is a Child of The Sun
And All The Children Of The Earth-- "Life"
Living Things--- are fueled and live only
by sunlight, which is starlight.  Then at night
we fall asleep or unconscious, and
our minds transport our souls to another
universe, one that is basically evil, one
We Call Dreams, Or Sleep, One We
Cannot Live Without, One Which Is Hell
The We Awaken To Our Sun When The Sun
Shines Upon Our Side Of Earth, East and West
It Rises in the East and Sets In The West
And Plants Grow Only Because Of Sunlight
Water is a coincidence.  Plants Grow
from starlight they are the children
of starlight Our Sun--- and So are We,
The People, humans, and all animals
on the earth.  if plants come from starlight
which is sunlight, then animals must come
from starlight which is sunlight, and we all have
Souls, and where do Our Souls Come From---
Is it not logical to argue that our souls are bits
of sunlight/starlight, born of sunlight, and
to the sunlight they return when we die?
What is the sun besides a star?  Is it God?
Is It The Son Of God, No Pun Intended?
Is it Jesus Christ?  Is it where our souls
reside in the sun?  Is is where our souls
return to when we die is it the sunlight infinite
infinite, because it is light, and all light
is starlight, and all light is infinite and eternal
are our souls then not either the equivalent of light
or the children of light, beloved of light?
The darkness is trustworthy, is will not destroy us
or our planet, because God trusts the darkness enough
to turn his face from half his earth and his children on it
all the time.  So i interpret the darkness of space
is not malignant, doesn't want to hurt us, isn't---
---isn't relevant.  I think we should Worship
The Sun and its Planet Gods.
In JEsus' Name,
AMEN.

"Love Is The Answer and the Cure To Pain"
I Could Have Told You HOw
My Heart Kept on a breaking
like a baby tossed in a gale, thrown
from his nest yes i could have told you
how the darkness closed in and closes in still
all around every single day deeper and thicker
in the air like smoke in a fire they call it the future
i call it the end of the world but i am old and i could have
told you how lonely each of us was and how alone
and how hard it is to be alone for a year
or five years or ten, and how a call to your mother
can make spirng flowers bloom in the ugliest sidewalk cracks
and your sister is trying to be a grownup and all you want to tell her
is "slow down", and your father is all absorbed in coffins of money
that he will never even be able to enjoy, for in gaining his riches
he's lost some goodness of his heart, i fear...not entirely but in part
and my mother is fighting windmills alone in the middle of nowwhere
and i am fighting different windmills feels all alone in a crowded city
building where strangers pass one another on the crooked
streets, and the darkness and the loneliness could only be
defeated by a phone call to one another.  in times of fear
i could have told you, but i couldnt all the same, for i didnt
understand the cause of my pain, all i knew was that that i did feel pain
but i didn't know the source of it, and now i know the cure of it too
is Love-- to Love One Another, to Reach Out To One Another
In Our Many Solitudes, To Genuinely Look Beyond Our individual
Suffering and Perceive With Wisdom that is called Love, that
everyone we love is having just as hard off a time and eels just as
alone, that Love Will Hold Families And Friendships And Relationships
Together That Love and Looking Outside Of One's Own Self-Pity,
Is the Key To Solving Loneliness.  We all have heavy burdens,
Why not Carry One Anothers, Or laugh about the burdens themselves?
Yes Lord, Let there be Time Aplenty in this life to Love
One Another.  To Love One Another.  That is the hope and the Cure.
Love.
In Jesus' Name,
Amen.

"When I am Losing Hope I Have Faith"
When I  am losing Hope, I have Faith
Faith In The Goodness Of The Universe
In The Harmony and Balance of Life
In God Who I have Faith In
In Gravity- What goes up, must come down
In Laws of nature, physics, every action causes an
equal and opposite reaction.
This is karma
When people hurt me, i CRY.  Don't we all? Jesus.
Life Is HARD.  Too Hard.  Some People never even
Get the chance to live because they die before their time
some people have hardened hearts and cannot see goodness
and some people do not feel the love of God
And Some people do things that they regret
And some people sin and never get told of forgiveness
"His Burden was Made Heavy, That My Burden Would Be Light"
And Some People Chase MAterial Things into death
And Some people follow lust and sin and beauty and sex
And some people turn the other cheek and let bygones be bygones.
And some people take their own lives without knowing
that they didn't want to.  Sometimes, You Think You Want
Want To Die--- But You Need, Is To Get Some
Sleep!  Sleep On Sadness.  Sleep and Food and Comfort
Are Healing.  Reading Is Healing.  Heal THYSELF.
Heal Thyself that thee be not made a victim of these things
Heal thself by being GOOD to yourself, do things for yourself
encourage yourself, have faith in yourself, believe in yourself
never give up on yourself--- and never give up on life, on living---
Because, God has a  PLAN for You, and for me, he reaches out
his finger to your tiny childlike finger and touches it and he says,
"YOU ARE MY CHILD, IN WHOM I AM  WELL PLEASED."
"NEVER FORGET HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU" Love, God.
In JEsus' Name,
 Amen.

Hearts Breaking
Every Single Day
Hearts Aching
And Heart Who've
 Lost their way!
Souls longing
longing to be good
a million million dreamers
all dreams equally good!

"A Near-Death Experience"
I dreamed a dream that I was rare
Like Only a Rose In all the World
That the one i've loved for all my life
was wrapped in my white angel wings.
Then I Awoke In the Arms Of My God
And I fell to my kneess and wept bitterly
for the losting of my angel's wings
and the longing for kissing his pretty mouth
and how little i cared to be back in my home---
then-- how much i feared how nearly i died!