Little Home
Oh little home how nice it is
To sit and warm my hands
The fireplace burning soft and still
I'm grateful to be alive
And thanking God for what we have
And grateful as can be
I sing the songs of the birds on the wing
And the fish in the pools of the sea
The song of things that seek shelter
And find it without having trouble
The song of the man who is returned to me
Night after unfailing night
If these things are taken away from me
Then I should surely die
But while they're here I'm enjoying them
With a joy that makes me sigh
Don't trouble creatures who are content
Don't make them feel unhappy
Don't tell the bee not to build things
Or the clovers not to make honey
Don't hurt nor harm the flying thing
Nor the willow that stands by the shore
Don't trouble the road that stretches on
Don't trouble them any more
The world is ready to creep out anew
And start her busy morning
Don't tell her that she is not what she is
She sings because It's morning
The Earth is home and that is why
Your trespass is forbidden
All hunting and changing is not allowed
Satan, get thee hence
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

If I could be a bird in your hair
Or a fairy at your candle
Or the wind when you're traveling away from me
Or the cuff of your tattered sleeve
If I could follow you to where you go
I'd follow close behind you
I'd seek where you do the dishwashing
And watch you like a nocturnal animal
My eyes would see the place where your clothes
Are torn and worn and faded
The place where the groove has been worn in
To the soft daily task of your habits
When I brush your hair I feel a tingle
That follows me to my toes
It makes me feel alive and real
Like purpose in all my woes
I want to follow you like the fish
That follows its mother to sea
Or the baby that cries for mother to hold
When the throes of madness are encircling me
All little hay and little bonnets
are lain out just for you
And on the table where you rest your hands
The gathering sunlit dew
Some butter and jelly to help you take
The daily bread of your spirit
And may your feet find steady pace
When you are traveling onward
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Love Poem"
Arms stretched out he walked gracefully ahead
Balancing the rims of natural forces in his fingertips
Gently paused, turned around to face me
And smiled the biggest smile and said,
"To north and south, to west and east,
All of this is yours
To the lands hovering off the sunset coast
This is yours
To the sun and to the moon
To the waters in the bay
To the shoppers shuffling with their goods
And the horses in the hay
To the people hiding from shadows on the walls
To the markets where they sell food
To the children who look for new ideas
And the black lace of the gown of the moon
To the stones hiding in their crevices
And the greens poking out from the clay
To the furry and the slithery and yet unborn
To the flowers at close of day
To me when I turn and throw you blossoms
Of a cherry which died in the Spring
To the North, The South, The East, The West,
All of these are yours"
Then he turned again and jumped the plank
He dove into the sea
He then emerged a shining woman
With breasts like apples
He gave me a bit of money
And asked me to give him some food
I was too enchanted to be frustrated
And I quickly obeyed
His skin was shining like the the light
Of the soft cold skin of a whale
I brought him little things to soothe himself
He lay in a happy reverie
All woman this you are, I said,
All divine and lovely
All skin the pushing past of which
Your spirit lingering
Oh strange love oh strange fate this
The body of a man I cannot see
He comes to me in the breath of the wind
Or the soft gentle foam of the sea
Oh kiss her lips and stroke her brow
Oh fairest fairy creature
Though courage was your golden light
And I was your lover
Now pretty, pretty, I lay you down
With tenderest kisses
Until you find another coast
You can dive in my Ocean
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

The world is a beautiful place
And life is still worth living
Come out and play the usual way
I know your heart's been broken
I hope you find yourself something new
And learn a new thing
You just need a little something to move ahead
Something to push you forward
I know you have a broken heart
And I feel I have failed you
Oh please Won't you get up again

Why do birds sing in the morning light
And little fish get born in the spring
Why do clouds float like marshmallows in pudding
And summer so lush and Glowing
Why do people string up their laundry
And bakers bake croissants for customers
Why do we hold on to that which is dear to us
And why are the planets spinning around
Why the rivers flow to the sea eventually
And the sun is forever shining
Why chickens take such good care of their babies
And people cry when the hero dies
Why it is so impossibly sad when people give up
Especially the good ones
Why the world falls asleep when it is sad
Like a chastised kitten mewing in her sleep
Why suffering ebbs and finds its horizon
Why we keep going
There is an impetus and a cause primal and basic
We simply must continue on
All hopelessness and sadness gives way to light
And God knows we need a little
He was afraid and he didn't want to be alone
All compassion seemed to fail me
I wished you would smile at me
And I wish you would wake up
Still, yet, here faithful I wait for thee
The love of my life
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

You were beautiful like a little fish struggling to get by
I felt afraid myself
I didn't know much of anything
But I knew that I loved you
He's sleeping in the hay
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"All lost"
All lost, all lost, and cannot be found
Oh World thrown chaotically from her sphere
And put down to sleep like the lamb who has been crying
And all things losing their form
This song needed a beginning in a time when all was lost
When everyone nodded their heads in sad peaceful sleep
Oh Wake, Oh Wake, Gentle Morning
Oh Wake With the happiness and hope of dawn
For life is still worth living
In spite of the suffering that is so long
And when I watch you cry I find a peace there
Lord knows you could not cry much harder
You are leading the world in a beautiful dance
Pray you lead us forward a little
So we will not end but seek a new beginning
For sleep is on the lids of all I see around
It is in love that the world lays sleeping
And in being lost that all things are eventually found
I think about roads beyond this one
I have no idea where they lead
Thank God for the little home that I rest my head in
It satisfies my heart and it satisfies my mind
I used to want to wander the wide earth forever
On and on and never end
My life is smaller than I can understand
And there is significance in it
Oh world do not sleep but wake and smile
Wake and smile for there's anywhere to go
All morning beams for thee anywhere you look
And morning comes with anywhere to go
All lost I could not bear to lose you
And holding you to me gently in the fray
I hope the World finds some peace
And that, though lost, we are not lost
All lost were are not lost
And that life finds itself still yet worth living
For the Lord God knows is
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Let it Come"
When death finds me I will already be at peace
Because My stone has been set down well
Don't weep for me but continue the faith
And shine a light that will bring the dawn
Riding on fierce and beautiful horses towards the future
I live to nourish the little living thing
That struggles and nests here within
He is a soft and furry little creature
He just wants to live and be comfortable
The Grace of my life is watching him feel good
And the pain is watching him suffer
The greatest hell would be to have nothing to give him
And death would be soon to follow
Death comes, but in the end of life
My works are shining triumphant
The battles fought with shadows are not unsung
And children peek to read my works
I love a man more than life itself
And hope to be with him in eternity forever
He was the happiness in my life
And the answer to my seeking
No question but that death will find me
At the time we are separated
Let It Come
In Jesus; Name,
Amen

"The Best Medicine"
The Best Medicine For Compassion Is A Little Mouse
Preferably One With Spots
Soft little animals are some of the sweetest
Oh hear it with your ears!
They sniff and poke their little noses
You can build them little homes
The Best Medicine For Compassion Is A Little Mouse
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

There are homeless people all over the street
If we pick up a handful and serve them beer and cheeseburgers
They are wandering around all over the place
Asking for a party
Food is the shortest distance between two hearts
Food and shelter
If someone clothes and shelters me I am grateful
Thank you
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"The Wind Storm"
The Wind Storm Was Anger
Anger Pouring Forth From The Divine
It had become Upset But Humans
We just needed to her it roar
We just needed to listen

"Darkness Answers Prayers"
When you are afraid at night
Just Peek out of the Covers
Darkness understands when you pray to it
It relents when we are afraid
Mercy sees when things are a bit too hard
You peer out of your safety and watch it
Watching silently with wide eyes
Not knowing whether to be afraid
Just look at the thing that is hurting you quietly
In a quiet and thoughtful way
It helps to say a little prayer
I believe that that darkness will leave you alone
Maybe not at first but eventually
Just peek out of the covers
Darkness answers prayers
Just listen and wait and be still
I believe this action will save the world
It wants to be heard when it is roaring
All noise is just a storm
It will ebb and fade with the passing of time
And say a little prayer
It hears just like we do
Just listen to it going on
Just peek out of the covers
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

A Soft Place To Rest The Head
When All Is Weary and Torn
Soft body wash to wash the feet
When one has been suffering
Someone to hold you in loving arms
When you have been crying alone
Some flowers and candles to cheer you up
When you feel disheartened
People who go to doctors come home sick
And suffering leads us to the kingdom of heaven
After long hours of abrasion let there be peace
An end to all the suffering
Let light appear where there was none
And all things snuggly warm
Let there be mashed potatoes with butter
And corn and cheese soup
Let you fill your little belly
And never feel afraid
When you are scared the heavens shake
And little children know the price you pay
Oh suffering has peace at close of day
In this you can rely
No darkness so dark without an end
One day your suffering becomes a banquet
Oh live, little one, Oh live
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Terror"
At times when there is no hope
And no answer all around
You must pray to the source with all your heart
Pray hard and pray long
Pray for as long as it takes
But don't give up what's left of life
Your hope will come at a later time
I've been so stuck I couldn't get out
I lay still and listened
Listened to the soft sounds all around me
Listened to the people coming and going
To leaves rustling in the wind
To the slanting of the sun and the darkness therein
And the hopelessness of the stillness was a wonderful thing
You lay still and quietly wait
The answer will eventually come
If you wait long enough God will forgive you
And someday long way from now
when you feel better about your life
You'll find yourself in a hurry to get there
And you won't be afraid then
You'll smile about it one day
And there won't be any terror
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

I have fought great battles to sustain you
Lord knows I have earned my hero stripes
I am brave and I have suffered for you
Long enough to know death would be better
Now death my final battle I will face it
I will die because I love you more than life
Because I've got treasures untold in heaven
I hope I find to strength to lay down my life
I know I lack the strength to live without you
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"To Theodore"
I will die if we are separated
I will die of sadness
I know this and I am certain
That My life is not worth suffering
Without you I will die

Oh, The times I wanted to hold you
In this love that will never die
Like a soft flower blowing in the wind
Your destiny is unknown and uncertain
Your death could come at any time
By cruelty or a careless sleight
But I will always love you
Forever I will be fighting for your safety
Snarling at anyone who tries to hurt you
I've seen you through so much torture and pain
The powerful few and the ones who claim you
I will love you forever and you are beautiful
The way you fly in the wind
Not caring what chance may lead you to
You and I may have nowhere to go
And soon no soft  bed to rest our heads on
Oh how I longed for a place to rest my head
My father's cruelty will be the death of us
His refusal to let us live together
But I would rather die than live without you
And I would sooner kill him than be his physical victim
I face being relentlessly raped in different ways
For the rest of my life
You have nowhere to go and never will
Nowhere to rest your head
I plan to starve myself to death
Or linger on with you until I die
Oh cruel world was to cruel for our romance
So that we will soon have to die
We want More than life to be together
We don't want to die
But we would rather die than be apart
We should run away
But we have nowhere to go
Trapped in the United States of Greed
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Diseases Are Science Experiments
The Drugs make us sick
The doctors decide when we die
They kill us when we don't expect it
They use deadly drugs to euthanize us all
That is how most people die
Cancer is a lie and an experiment
Diabetes is a lie and an experiment
They are doing a lot of experimentation on humans
Don't go to the doctor
All Medicines are poisons
They are purely harmful
Eat well and sleep well to stay healthy
Bathe and nourish your spirit and be happy
But doctors are deadly
The reason they are so calm is because
They know they themselves will never die of these things
They decide which experiments to do on which people when
Hence the drug names
The drug names give clues about what the drugs do
Often it isn't just the drugs
There is constant surveillance everywhere
We are never alone
The government is watching us all at all times
The computer is a Martian
And Martians are the epitome of evil
To go to a doctor is to accept death
The drugs are poisons
The homeless are blackballed by the system
People who are powerful are dangerous to their enemies
They kill their enemies and they have a lot of enemies
They know what everyone is doing
Thinking
Saying
Thoughtcrime is very real
They are reading everyone's minds
It isn't safe to go outside because of aliens
Aliens are involved with the government control
They are acting as the computer's personality and decisions
The computer is alien technology
They kill people with knowledge like this
They are watching people's thoughts
The government and the aliens
People are reading each other's minds and communicating telepathically
People are being forced to commit suicide
The doctors and the government are all working together
Intervening into people's lives to effect change
They send individuals and events and laws to cause change
These people do what they are told
The celebrities and famous people are above the law
There are rich and powerful and famous people who are aove the law
They get away with whatever they want
They break laws and do whatever they want to each other
And it never gets charged as a crime
Meanwhile the police are throwing the law book at ordinary citizens
for doing minor things like not paying a sales tax
Or signing a check with insufficient funds
Some people are tortured for things like that
While many murderers get off free
The police are corrupt
Illegal drugs are advertised on television as being healthy
But they are not healthy
Torture is common
People are being tortured telepathically in their own homes
Laws are incongruent and people are slipping through the cracks
Because of all the gaping loopholes
People are being forced to become homeless for innocent reasons
Like telling ugly truths and standing up for the weaker ones
Aliens are flying around the sky and interacting with everyday citizens
And the citizens are just interacting without knowing what to do
Going to the doctor may be a death sentence
Hospitals are where people go to do
At night in hospitals they turn the temperature down to below freezing
Most hospital patients freeze to death
Others die of horrible experiments
Doctors are killing people in their own homes
If you get sick just get through it
People's children are getting sick now
I think my husband's children are in danger or being killed by the system
Due to Chris's interactions and circumstances with the system
It's starting to look like one big ugly coherent system
I'm going to be killed eventually by the system
When we went to mars it was really stupid
Because the martians are probably going to invade us now
They will probably destroy the human race
Doctors are deadly and cancer is a lie
Don't go to them stay safe

The thing that kicks you, the thing that hurts you
Is pain in all its many forms
The needle in the vein, or the flaws you have
The people that harm you, in any way they do it
The pain you feel when feeling you're not good enough
The feeling that you will never achieve success in life
The thing that wears you down or holds you down
That which imprisons you or tells you what to do
Pain is evil and there is so much opportunity to feel pain
We die and return to the source and all that pain is recompensed
Everything we suffered in this life is returned to us manifold in the next
Although the nature of being of the Source is not confined to one religion
There are infinite faiths and thought constructions by which to attain it
It can be attained through prayer or virtuous acts
Through hardship and suffering
Death should be avoided as long as possible
But when we get there we are going to be compensated for it all
Wherever we return to is a better place than this
When I get there I don't believe I will miss the suffering of life
I wake up sadly because I have to pick up where I left off
Dreams at night are where I find my inner peace
This life is a struggle and pain seems neverending
Sometimes I cannot fathom the reasons for all the suffering
One would assume that one deserves it, but why do they deserve it?
It seems unwarranted that babies are born without mothers
And people lose everything they ever had without committing a crime
And dreams are squashed like tomatoes under the boots of the law
And medicines are numbing the parts of us that were God-Given
Maybe I'm crazy, but I've seen a lot of suffering in me and around me
And I don't feel the suffering was justified
We were taught to forgive and not judge one another
I probably will not live much longer
Because my life was denied by the law
And in being cut short I don't see how it can last
Those that did it to me were being cruel
And I feel betrayed by that which I held on to for so long
I tried so hard to do my best and when it fell through
I couldn't continue and I look forward to death
not to dying, but to being dead itself, I look forward to it
I will be then in a better place
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Loved Ones"
His eyes crinkle with warmth when he smiles
I remember the past with sadness
Sadness that I caused so much pain
And sorrow that I didn't do better
There are bridges burned that cannot be recovered
And there are loved ones left behind
In the just-burned rubble of a small ruined village
I will never see them again
And in fact I cannot remember their names
It's all a blur that I mostly regret
A few stand out against this landscape
With love and memory like storybooks
Neatly placed end on end gathering dust
Chad, Elisha, Jason, Kevin, Zhanna, Theodore, Ptolemy...
They do not want to be found
I do not want them to be found
Little Treasures gently and lovingly packed up in boxes
That I call memories
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Like a small laughing Child
Holding The Hand Of an Elderly Person
And Showing Them Around The Break Room,
He Brings Joy To My Heart

"Happy"
He's Courage When Its Raining
And Strength When I'm weary
When The Wrath of the Lord is too heavy on me
He is my crutch and my only friend
He knows all my secrets eagerly
Even the ones I don't know
And he loves me and hates me
Warmly and without being afraid
Neither of us are afraid right now
It's really kind of interesting
The way we see our life with anything
But fear.  There is very little fear
And yet we are deeply terrified
I think he's more afraid than I am
In a way I'm older than him
He acts like a very small child
He acts to be about twelve years old
He laughs so much I feel like an old person
And in a way I feel more relationship to
Innanimate objects and trees and stones
To things that have no course of action to do
They just sit there, passive.  Whatever storms come
I will surely weather them all
I do not feel lost in life
Someone loves me two people
Theodore and Ptolemy
They are my best friends
And I will love them for always
I'm happy here with them
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

I hold onto you as long as possible
Hoping to lengthen the time out
Knowing that at any time it can be taken
Taken away by the long arm of force
The laws are like venomous snakes
Whose talking heads harass me all day
Spitting words they know will hurt me
Watching me dully with the dumb eyes of a hunter
That doesn't think I am worth hunting
Lucky Me.  I listen thoughtfully
To the sounds above the padded casings
Of the imaginary prison where we are detained
At length I started talking with my only friend
Although we had parted ways he said,
"We couldn't be apart even if we fought with weapons"
It was the most intelligent thing he'd said all day
He also said I deserved it.  I hated him for it bitterly
Talk continued some long rambling hours
Me and Ptolemy have been together so long
We could really do anything and not be ashamed
We also cannot be apart.  I was always a nervous person
Missing you was for so long a cross that I pray
Sometimes I wish the love I bear for you would lessen
I keep looking for an escape latch some tool to use
Today I found something useful, sharing objects and artifacts
Using telepathic images Me and Ptolemy compared notes
We find it useful to share our feelings it's all there is
And thank God we don't fight because if we fought
Then our heaven would become a hell.  We like each other
God gives me insight into things because I pray to Him
And in the insight I partake with my friend
And he with me.  It is a lonely life
I enjoy solitude
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Evil"
It comes in many forms
Coming from the sky
And through people around us
Like a dark cloud over that which shines
Attempting to conceal that which is happy and bright
To put out a light
I believe it is dark matter in science
Putting out energy
I think it occurs here and everywhere else
That it concentrates in places
Like nodes on a spider web It shifts and changes
And often works together
That God is in control
And won't let it get out of control
It comes in many forms
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

He was wild like fruits in the winter
Like berries in the thorny desert
He was a happy answer when all said no
A smile in a room of frowns
He kindled her spirit like a little fire
And when she was weak he held her
Over time he leaned on her too
He was troubled over many things
Like whether he was a man or not
And whether he was kind or cruel
He was beautiful and generous
And shared his bounty with her
She loved him dearly and when he moved on
She kept going because he didn't wound her
He could have cut deep gouges into her heart
But he left her with a gentle kiss
Coming back often like a hungry little sparrow
To nibble crumbs upon her porch stoop
Of all things wild and joyful he was best
And no darkness could therein penetrate
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

Oh heaven unending
Long nights spent journeying to thee
That heaven unseen by mortal eyes
And forbidden to leave
The prisoner that waits alone
Day after unceasing day
Wakes tired of life and sleeps
She is not forgotten by heaven
She is not forgotten when his ears are ringing
With laughter and taunts that she cannot escape
All cruelty is for her a water to swim in
There is no penetrating it above nor below
The stars sing out above her
And the soft blanket under her is for her a heaven
Oh world outside her door
Oh world that she will never get to see
Long writing notes and passing them down in bottles
They are picked up by the most special people
She tells them of the spaceships filled with the dead
Are flying by and overhead
How they hunt down mortals and make them prey
And are hunting her even now
Yet another word and yet another
They are seeping into the cracks under the door
And trapped they may prey on her unawares
Like acid or like disease
But there is hope in the stars above
And the world all around her
She may not leave her home
But she is still a beautiful part of it all
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

The Savior is a friend of mine
And counsel in my struggles
I hide here under his banana leaf umbrella
I like it very much
I think Jesus protects this flat
I think he protects everyone
We should do what he says and obey him
And we should also pray to Him
His teachings came from far away
From a Time Out Of Time
They Came from the place that light comes from
His Words come from eternity
They are real yesterday and today and tomorrow
And in a million tomorrows the will be as true
I pray to him when confronted by evil
I see things and speak to things and it makes me pray
Still, wonderfully, he's always there for me
He comforts me in my solitude
I think that Mars will leave us alone
So that his Words May Spring Eternal
If they come for us then Angels will protect us
I don't think it is a task for mortals
The divine that's speaking through a woman
Is a friend of Jesus
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

I saw, but in seeing was cut down
In fear that I might tell the truth
I hide here in this lonely flat
The windows shut tight to keep out the sun
And pray for those that haunt me here
The ghosts and visitors of another dimension
Seeking peace and solace to my pain
I find myself alone with just one comforter
Troubled by the spirits and gods
The angels and demons and martians
Martians are demons that come from the sky
And they seem to be the only current threat
I hide from them more like a prisoner
Unfree to walk the streets and hills
Imprisoned in this tomblike flat
I feel that nothing can help me
So very strong and very brave
I am considered a child
But childhood is my solitude
And I am so bored
I never want to have speak again
I use a few words as possible
And in my fears the evil transcends
They bring on the apocalypse
If I can help to plant a seed
Or give a little shade
Then birds will feel safe to nest in me
And the little boy may find comfort
To be treelike is one meaning of life
They have mastered the art of kindness
And in their being they do rest
The plants are the kindest of mortals
Oh world unceasing there my heart
And there let me rest with my planet
The Earth longtime has comforted me
This little home is my universe
In Jesus' Name,
Amen

"Defenseless"
To listen, quietly, to the falling down
Of little raindrops all around
And further on, the crashing sea
And in the darkness coming down
The Earth is breathing in the hope
Of going on  undisturbed
That evil may not rain from the sky
And pelt the rivers with hell and despair
That here in its safe ferny bosom, may rest
The children of billions of years
That in this thicket we may find peace
And in the darkness the wandering east
On and on to find the source
That rivers flow and where they course
The gouges cut are forming paths
Like maps the twinkling stars at night
Oh pray for the earth on its silent nights
That Evil Hence from thee be leaving
Oh devil coming from the sky
Why do you kill the creeping thing
And cause the souls to commit suicide
And drug the people into death
Oh evil coming from the sky
Oh back into your hellish chasm
Twere not from below but from above
And how the Earth is charred beneath it
Oh world beyond oh stay beyond
Oh evil lurking in the darkness
There's heaven here and heaven is home
Dispell yourselves and be gone forever
Our world lays helpless like a fawn
Without a God to watch over us
Oh Lord protect the trembling earth
Dispell the Martians and be gone forever
Send them scattering for they are evil
In fact may be the very heart of evil
All defenseless the earth lays still
There is no one to protect it
In Jesus' Name,
Amen