The thing that kicks you, the thing that hurts you
Is pain in all its many forms
The needle in the vein, or the flaws you have
The people that harm you, in any way they do it
The pain you feel when feeling you're not good enough
The feeling that you will never achieve success in life
The thing that wears you down or holds you down
That which imprisons you or tells you what to do
Pain is evil and there is so much opportunity to feel pain
We die and return to the source and all that pain is recompensed
Everything we suffered in this life is returned to us manifold in the next
Although the nature of being of the Source is not confined to one religion
There are infinite faiths and thought constructions by which to attain it
It can be attained through prayer or virtuous acts
Through hardship and suffering
Death should be avoided as long as possible
But when we get there we are going to be compensated for it all
Wherever we return to is a better place than this
When I get there I don't believe I will miss the suffering of life
I wake up sadly because I have to pick up where I left off
Dreams at night are where I find my inner peace
This life is a struggle and pain seems neverending
Sometimes I cannot fathom the reasons for all the suffering
One would assume that one deserves it, but why do they deserve it?
It seems unwarranted that babies are born without mothers
And people lose everything they ever had without committing a crime
And dreams are squashed like tomatoes under the boots of the law
And medicines are numbing the parts of us that were God-Given
Maybe I'm crazy, but I've seen a lot of suffering in me and around me
And I don't feel the suffering was justified
We were taught to forgive and not judge one another
I probably will not live much longer
Because my life was denied by the law
And in being cut short I don't see how it can last
Those that did it to me were being cruel
And I feel betrayed by that which I held on to for so long
I tried so hard to do my best and when it fell through
I couldn't continue and I look forward to death
not to dying, but to being dead itself, I look forward to it
I will be then in a better place
In Jesus' Name,
Amen